Not really into it so far...

To be perfectly honest, I'm not really liking 2012 so far.  Thankfully, there are 12 months in a year so I still have 11 months and a few days to change my opinion on the year.  What has happened that has made 2012 not great- nothing.  I just don't like it.  It is the winter.  I don't like the winter.  It is cold and I don't like being cold.  To make matters worse, I feel like all 2012 has brought is rain.  Not even a snowflake or two but just rain.  Rainy days are gross.  My hair and rain aren't friends.  I like to play outside and it is hard to do that when it is raining.  Which also means I am not getting my needed daily dose of Vit. D.  Oh sunshine (and the warm beach), I miss you!  I really, really miss you!

I am "training" for a half marathon.  I say that with quotations because in the last 7 days I have run once.  And to top that off, it was a 3 mile run...with 1.5 miles being in the pouring down rain.  In all honesty, it was invigorating!  I was supposed to run 8 miles this past Saturday but I didn't feel like it...and I stayed in my pajamas the entire day Saturday because of the dang rain.  The fact I am blogging right now is one more way for my to procrastinate my run today.  One step closer to my pants not fitting, great.  I need to learn to appreciate the treadmill or how to be one of those crazy people who run outside rain, sleet, snow, or sun.  I'm not there yet.  I am praying that I can find the motivation to get active...plus the more I run the better my mood is :-)

2012 has brought change.  I like change.  Some people don't but I have always loved change.  I started my new job the first week of January.  I say new but in reality I am now getting paid for something that I was doing for free the last few months.  For some reason, I am struggling with this change.  Maybe because it hasn't met my expectations or maybe the fact that my expectations were unrealistic of how fast things would be up and running.  I didn't realize how much waking up an hour earlier would impact me.  I have always been a morning person and my body naturally wakes up at 6:15.  5:15 on the alarm has been a difficult adjustment.  I am exhausted by the time I get home.  What is wrong with me!?!  The black circles under my eyes are not attractive.  I have come to realize that one of the most difficult changes for me, admitting that change can be hard and that I am struggling with it.  So there we have it, I am resisting this change.  I know God is helping me or trying to teach me something through this but I haven't figured it out yet.

Okay, I feel better now that I have put my 2012 disappointments out there and now maybe I can get out of my rut!  Or the sun can come out.  That would be nice.