Never enough time

It is borderline suicide for me to even take a break to sit and type this. There are so many other things I should be spending my time doing right now...reading, case studies, plans of care, organizing, researching, more reading, reviewing notes, etc., etc. Maybe I should use this time to make a phone call to a friend, or my parents, or a sister. I have done an amazing job through nursing school so far not stressing or allowing myself to be overwhelmed. Well, it finally happened! I feel in over my head. A typical 16 week semester has been condensed into 9 weeks. I figured it out last semester; when to study, when to read, what is due when. It all got changed around. With the temptation to play outside or travel for a long weekend during the summer our profressors have put in safeguards to ensure that we come to class. I can't blame them. I would probably do the same thing. It is a lot of busy work though. I will just have to adjust to it...and I know I will.

I was watching a sermon online from North Point Church the other night with CJ. We were catching up on a part of the current series we missed. The pastor and his wife we doing the sermon together. They got to a part where they were discussing Sandra's desire to homeschool her children and the sacrifice she had to make to do so. She talked about all the time she wanted to go to lunch with friends or just go out and do something but she had set her mind to achieving this goal of homeschooling her kids. She said she use to reflect on the part of the bible where Nehemiah was busy building the wall of Jerusalem. Men of the town kept trying to steer him away from his work. He sent messengers to tell the men "I am doing a good work and I cannot come down."

"I am doing a good work and cannot come down." That surely spoke to my heart. I need to stay focused. I need to realize that I am doing a good work and I am close to achieving my goals and I can not take the time to come down right now! Focus, focus, focus!

It hit me hard when my favorite girls and I were trying to plan our annual summer vacation. It just so happens that everyone can go but me. Of course I feel sorry for myself. I don't want to miss out. I need girl time. I need time away. I DESERVE time away! But again, I am doing a good work and I can not come down!!!!

Pictures from Girl's Trip 2009!